Cocoon

I close my eyes and feel your fingers tap against my shoulders
A chill runs down my spine when I hear you sigh somewhere really close
Notwithstanding the thought of having a being away from you,
I have my cocoon built inside this cold aloof reality
Where love prevails and happiness stays and smile never fades
Where I can hear you whisper beautiful words in my ear
Where I can dance in joy at the sight of you
My cocoon protects me from the harshness outside and keeps me warm
..in the light that shines bright, reassuring me of your presence in it
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Incomplete Emptiness

There’s a void in my heart and in my life
A place reserved for you, your thoughts, your memories and dreams of you
An emptiness that’s complete in itself with your image in it
A void where your eyes don’t blink but stay awake with me, watching me , keeping me alive
For as long as it breathes,  I know my soul has an essence and my breath is shared with you
For in this emptiness, I’ll stay forever; complete yet incomplete without you ..

Resurrection

Crawling to the corner of the room
Crouching under my own shadow
Rolling myself into a lump
I shed tears, mourning for your loss
My heart cries out so you could hear my helpless howls
Unable to accept that you’re gone never to return
Unable to understand that this how it’ll be with a soul that burns
This hollowness in the pit of my stomach that doesn’t allow me to breathe
This wrenching pain in my heart that pulls me down to hit the rock bottom
I wish to forget everything, I want to set myself free
Go somewhere where no-one knows me
Go somewhere where nobody loves me, hates me or treats me with indifference
A far away land where my eyes can rest peacefully in the lap of my resurrection..

Just Mine..

Sitting by myself on a beach one night

I gaze into the lights showing far away on the other side of the coast

I wish the people around me could vanish

Their noises and laughter to fade away

For me to be here all by myself

The lights to dance for me, just me

The waves to rise and slid under my bare feet, just mine

The sound of the waves crashing to whisper in my ears, just mine’

And for you to sit beside me, for your love is all mine, just mine!

Life is a Ride – Kindle Version — Diana Janet Joseph

Dear All, Life is a Ride – Volume 1 is now available in all the geographies, in both the paperback and the kindle version. The below are the kindle links; #INDIA https://www.amazon.in/Life-Ride-Never-Ending-Friendship-ebook/dp/B01M25UKLK/ref=sr_1_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1476951799&sr=1-2 #UK https://www.amazon.co.uk/Life-Ride-Never-Ending-Friendship-ebook/dp/B01M25UKLK/ref=sr_1_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1476951799&sr=1-2 #US https://www.amazon.com/Life-Ride-Never-Ending-Friendship-ebook/dp/B01M25UKLK/ref=sr_1_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1476952255&sr=1-2&keywords=Life+is+a+Ride+by+Diana+Janet+Joseph #Aus https://www.amazon.com.au/s/ref=nb_sb_noss/354-9132004-0569803?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=Life+is+a+Ride+by+Diana+Janet+Joseph Cheers, Diana Janet Joseph

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Book Review- Shades of Adolescence

I am generally not a fan of Chick Lit or any novel/movie which has love story in it. Probably because I don’t think real life gives you a fairy tale that these typically portray.However, when I got a call from an old friend of mine informing me that she has released her debut novel, I ordered this one immediately- Shades of Adolescence by Harshita Sharma.

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What I picked up thinking it’s going to be same old Cliche Chetan Bhagat kinda novel turned out to be much more. Yes, it has a love story in it but the book in itself is also about friendships, schools, those days of mischief, going around the city in your two-wheeler, hiding trivial things from parents considering it to be a big top secret, the phase of having first crush, falling in and out of love, favorite subjects, favorite teachers and much more!

You have to read it yourself to find out. The book has it’s own highs and lows, moments when you say ” Oh Wow!! I remember those days” or when you feel ” Crap! I really don’t want to think of the time when this happened to me” but then it’s all part of a package.

We all went through that phase of adolescence and the shades it brings with it. Reading through the novel, brought back many memories and I felt as if I am re-living those days.

The way Harshita has developed her plot is commendable too. Though I felt at times that the characters or the plot at that very instant is half baked and it could have been better, but overall I enjoyed it a lot, especially the end. Knowing Harshita personally, I knew she wouldn’t write something that’s conventional. But the way she has projected her characters, made me feel a part of their lives, which in itself is a great thing to achieve.

There are very few who read my blog but if you reading this, I would urge you to get this one. You’ll not regret. And if you’re a budding author too, I’m sure you’ll know how much time one invests to write and to publish a novel is a big deal. I hope you enjoy reading this one.

Cheers to Harshita!

 

 

 

Book Review- Shantaram

“Sometimes we love with nothing more than hope. Sometimes we cry with everything except tears.” 

Shantaram is one of my favourites now. If I make a list of top 10 favourite books, this will definitely feature in Top 5.

It is based in Mumbai city for most part of the plot and is an autobiography plus part fiction of life of the author Gregory David Roberts. Anything related to Mumbai anyways excites me. The city has a charm I can’t get over. I have stayed in Mumbai for a few years and If I ever have a chance, I would love to go back. Despite the crowd, the distance and the high cost of living, the warmth of the place makes you forget every pain!

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I am not sure how much of it is true and how much is fiction. However the part set in Mumbai more or less seems like true incident. Entering a new city, experiencing village, slum, making friends, everything was so beautifully written. I can’t even count the number of “quotable lines” from this book. Some of them that I’ve mentioned below were amazing to read and feel.

The whole war part wasn’t very engrossing. Probably, I say so because it moved away from Mumbai. But the plot seemed very fabricated. Yet, I would say it was well written. For me, personally, how good an author is comes from how well he ends his books. The climax of Shantaram was just perfect for me.

The below lines have no spoilers whatsoever. If you’ve already read the book, this may bring back fond memories. If you haven’t, this probably will make you wanna read it.

1. Civilisation is defined by what we forbid, more than what we permit.

2. The only force more cynical and ruthless than the business of politics is the politics of big business.

3. When you judge the power that is in a person, you must judge their capacities as both friend and as enemy.

4. Some women are like that. Some loves are like that. Most loves are like that, from what I can see. Your heart starts to feel like an overcrowded lifeboat. You throw your pride out to keep it afloat , and your self respect and your independence. After a while you start throwing people out- your friends, everyone you used to know. And it’s still not enough. The lifeboat is still sinking, and you know it’s going to take you down with it.  I hVe seen it happen to a lot of girls here. I think that’s why I am sick of love.

5. Optimism is the first cousin of love and it’s exactly like love in three ways: it’s pushy, it has no real sense of humor and it turns up where you least expect it.

6. A dream is a place where wish and fear met. When the wish and the fear are exactly the same , he said, we call the dream a nightmare.

7. Poverty and pride are devoted blood brothers until one, always and inevitably , kills the other.

8. The burden of happiness can only be relieved by the balm of suffering.

9. When we are young, we ThNk that suffering is something that’s done to us. When we get older- when the steel door slams shut, in one way or another, we know that real suffering is measured by what’s taken away from us.

10. You are not a man until you give your love, truly and freely, to a child. And you are not a good man until you earn the love, truly an freely, of a child in return.

11. Nothing grieves more deeply or pathetically than one half of a great love that isn’t meant to be.

12. One of he ironies of courage, and the reason why we prize it so highly, is that we find it easier to be brave for someone else than we do for ourselves alone.

13. They were poor, tired, worried men, but they were Indian, and any Indian man will tell you that although love might not have been invented in India, it was certainly perfected there.

14. Fear dries a man’s mouth and hate strangles him. Thats why hate has no great literature: real hate and real fear have no words.

15. People haven’t stopped believing in love. They haven’t stopped wanting to be in love. They just don’t believe in happy ending anymore. They still believe in love, and falling in love, but they know now that…they know that romances almost never end as well as they begin.

16. It was just that all the hope had been so empty, so meaningless. And if you prove to a man how vain his hope is, how vain his hoping was, you kill the bright , believing part of him that wants to be loved.

17. In the face of all that is so wrong with the world, the very worst thing you can do is to survive. And yet you must survive. It is this dilemma that makes us believe and cling to the lie that we have a soul, and that there is a God who cares about its fate.And now you have it.

18.There’s a kind of luck that is not much more than being in the right place at the right time, a kind of inspiration that’s not much more than doing the right thing in the right way, and both really happen to you when you empty your heart of ambition, purpose and plan; when you give yourself, completely, to the golden, fate filled moment.

19. Justice is a judgement that is both fair and forgiving. Justice is not done until everyone is satisfied, even those who offend us and must be punished by us.  Justice is not the only way we punish those who do wrong. It is also the way we save them.

20. Are we ever justified in what we do? When we act, even with the best of intentions, when we interfere with the world, we always risk a new disaster that mightn’t be of our making, but that wouldn’t occur without our action. Some of the worst wrongs were caused by people who tried to change things.

21. It’s impossible to despise someone you honestly pity, and tu shun someone you truly love.

22. At first, when we truly love someone, our greatest fear is that the loved one will stop loving us. What we should fear and dread, of course, is that we won’t stop loving them, even after they’re dead and gone.

While there were many many more lines that I would love to share, but they are just so many and so long that I’m quite lazy to type. And honestly, I feel reading it in the entire context would make much more sense.

Shantaram is definitely a must read!

Book Review- To Kill a Mocking Bird

This was the last book of the year 2015 and it felt great to have read it. I was told before reading it that you may not like it- since it is based on something that is quite old, which we don’t see anymore. But I personally didn’t feel disconnected ever.

Maybe because we have seen discrimination in so many movies or read about it in different books- that it doesn’t seem to be an alien concept.

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To Kill a Mocking Bird is the story narrated by Jean Louise Finch about her father Attitus Finch and her family, in the midst of a law suit against rape and racial inequality that Atticus is fighting against.

There are no quotable lines in this book. It is narrated by a child and the language is kept simple and lucid.

Multiple reasons why I loved the book and would recommend it to anyone who hasn’t yet read.

First, the narration is great. Looking at things from a child’s perspective was different. Their arguments and reasons makes us think too.

Second, The plot deals with serious issues but is dealt with extreme delicacy. It has humour, innocence, wisdom and learning.

Third, I loved the way relations were portrayed. Father-daughter, aunt-niece, neighbours, between friends. everything was carefully and neatly laid out.

Fourth, It shows an ideal parenting technique. The way Atticus deals with Jem or Scout is just amazing. Harpee Lee may not be a lawyer but she has sure sketched a character who thinks, talks and behaves like one. Atticus is extremely level headed and poised and I loved the way his character has been written.

I don’t have any more reasons. Probably, I don’t remember any more. I can only ask you to read it. It is a lovely book.

 

Book Review- Robinson Crusoe

Robinson Crusoe is a classic written by Daniel Defoe in the early 1700s. It is a story of a man who is castaway in a remote island and how he spends 30 years there before finding a way to return back to his country.

This book also is the plot for the Tom Hanks movie Cast away, if it interests you somehow.

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I generally like to read Classics- not because they are famous books written by famous authors, but because they are genuinely beautifully written. Well, mostly!

I typically pickup books which are well known or well appreciated. Most of my reviews will also be all praises for the quotes and the lines. Robinson Crusoe, sadly, doesn’t qualify on my favourites list. There are a few reasons. Firstly, it is a very old book. I can appreciate the fact that the plot and the language used might have been path breaking at that time, it however fails to impress me now. Secondly, I don’t like texts that speak so much about God and providence and illustrate that without an omnipotent force, everything is a lost cause. Every second line in Robinson Crusoe seems the same. Thirdly, there are books which depict joy and sorrow or grief beautifully. But usage of floods and storms and violence in this book, which was very apt and widely popular in those days, it failed to connect with me now.

I won’t call it a must read. But if you’re someone who enjoys reading classics in general, who can give this a try!

Below are some of the lines that I enjoyed from the book. However, beyond a point, I stopped jotting it down and just focussed on finishing the book!

1. I know not what to call this, not will I urge that it is a secret overruling decree, that hurries us on to the instruments of our own destruction, even though it be before us, and that we rush upon it with our eyes open.

2. I have since often observed, how incongruous and irrational the common temper of mankind is, especially of youth, to that reason which ought to guide them in such cases- viz that thy are not ashamed to sin, and yet are ashamed to repent; not ashamed of the action for which they ought justly to be esteemed fools, but are ashamed. Of the returning, which only can make then be esteemed wise men.

3. For sudden joys, like griefs, confound at first.

4. How strange a chequer-work of providence is the life of man! And by what secret different springs are the affections hurried about, as different circumstances present! Today we love what tomorrow we hate; today we seek what tomorrow we shun; today we desire what tomorrow we fear, nay, even tremble at the apprehensions of.

5. Fear of danger is ten thousand times more terrifying than danger itself, when apparent to the eyes; and we find the burden of anxiety greater, by much, than the evil which we are anxious about.

6. How infinitely good that providence is, which has provided , in its government of mankind, such narrow bounds to his sight and knowledge if things, and though he walks in the midst if so many thousand dangers, the sight of which, if discovered to him,  would distract his mind and sink his spirits, he is kept serene and calm, by having the events of things his from his eyes, and knowing nothing of the dangers which surround him.

Random Musings- How Good is it to have hope?

Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things. And no good thing ever dies.
This was probably one of my favourite quotes from Shawshank Redemption. Or maybe this was the only quote I ever remembered.

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I saw the movie Kandahar some time back and I now have a new favourite.

“Everyone needs a reason for living. Hope is that reason. For thirsty it is water, for hungry it is good, for lonely it is love , for a woman under full cover, hope is the day she will be seen.”

I recently went through a huge emotional change. I was building up my hopes on something so high that the thought of it coming crashing down didn’t even seem possible to me.

Turns out I was building a palace of cards completely ignoring the storm that was behind me the whole while just waiting for the right opportunity to give it a blow.

Sounds dramatic? Well, the effect on me was. Personally at least. I know a lot of people who are wise, matured and strong. I thought I was one of them but the last one year has disappointed me.

This came as a new year gift! I am not being sarcastic in calling it a gift. Disappointments are as important as victories. Someone once told me that I am not good at handling failures. Yes I wasn’t and now it is proven that I still am not.

But some failures teach you a big lesson. And believe it or not, no matter how short sighted you are as a person, there will come a time when you will look back at this and thank heavens that it happened.

After all, not all hopes are worth being nurtured. Definitely not at the cost of so many other good things that we ignore.

Which brings me to the original quote that I mentioned. It is very easy to talk about hope.

But how do we know what is worth hoping and what is not?

Just like we have dreams and aspirations which we categorise as optimistic, pessimistic and realistic ; we have something similar for hope.

Of  course there is nothing called pessimistic hope. It won’t even be a hope. But we can call it a negative one, specially if we are hoping it for somebody else. Ex?? I hope she rots in hell!! We hear it a lot, don’t we?

But we can choose to have  an optimistic hope or a realistic one.

Sometimes a quick reality check helps us know which one we personally are having.

It is very convenient to say ” one fine day, xyz or abc will happen”. Now this will be a realistic hope if you are working towards it or if the chances of accomplishing it depends more on you and less on fate or worse, on somebody else.

An optimistic or in some cases , foolish hope would be to depend on something totally unrelated to your own efforts and wait for it to happen.

As they say, we should happen to things rather than waiting for things to happen to us.

And if you currently have big hopes on yourself for something, it is time you gauge if it is realistic or just a foolishness!