That morning I walked to my usual joint,
To the top floor of an elevated building rendering a panoramic view point,
That morning when I surreptitiously left on the ground floor for you a magazine you endear,
You looked at it, gazed around the floor wondering if it was me, wondering if I was somewhere near,
You left it there, not wanting to carry anything that belongs to me,
I saw you walking away, walking at a distance , walking till you were a part of the crowd,
walking till the last step that i could see,
That last thread that joined us snapped, That was the last time I saw your face,
That was my last glance, that last memory of you sharing with me the same physical space ..
A dark forest, a bleak moonlight
I walk alone feeling lost with no respite,
I wonder if I’m going the right way,
Once lost you’ll remain lost forever they say,
I have my dreams , my passion and hope to give me company,
To fight the beastly enemies and the odds so many,
I like where I am, with no one to perturb my thoughts, with my soul at peace with its surroundings,
Where I can sing, whistle, talk to myself, do what I like, where I’m left content with my own feelings,
But I hear a howl somewhere, that shouts that I’ll be doomed and forlorn on this journey so convoluted,
I am unsure, I look around for a way out of this noise that’s shattering my calmness so deep rooted,
I wish I knew what I was doing was right,
For someone to tell me it will fall into the right place, just keep trying with all your might,
For a guardian angel with a God’s face to cover me in her cocoon and forever holds me tight.
Like a little capsule healing an entire body,
You walked into my life to nurture my soul;
Like lantern lighting up a dark cave,
You swooped into my heart with a brightness felt never before;
Like a smile that is so exuberant to show in one’s eyes,
You lighted up my face with sparkles I didn’t even know existed;
Like a halo to surround you in times of distress,
You held my hand to open the way to a lifetime of memories;
In words that can’t be expressed, you’ve changed me and my life with a touch as simple as a cuddle,
The life with you that I can carry, like a lightening in a bottle..
A land with plantations till the end of where we can see,
A distorted image in my mind,
Like a candle’s light flickering in the wind,
Some hazy memories of our togetherness and some of the pain when we parted
Like a mild rain which drenches you on a cold morning,
I try to think hard to see far into what could have been our future,
Like a deer being pulled towards a non existent mirage,
It probably is futile to think of it as our destinies have pushed us apart to extreme worlds,
Like the planets which know they co-exist but not meant for each other,
I want to believe in magic , one that will bring us together,
Like a green leaf that welcomes a fresh dew on it every morning that stays with it till its end..
Will our lives be changed by a miracle?
Will we ever get to see our ocean of love wrapped in a cozy blanket of the blue sky?
Dreaming of a future that seems impossible is Hope,
Finding a spot of light in the myriad sea of darkness is Hope,
The curve on the lips turning upwards after years of tears is Hope,
A bloom of flower after a season of Autumn is Hope,
Catching a rainbow on the other side of the world where the harsh rains have stopped is Hope,
Finding you at the end of that rainbow waiting for me, is Hope..
We often wonder what being in the presence of God feels like..
Lurking in the shadows of my own past,
My soul searches for a ray of sunshine,