Random Musings #2
I came across these beautiful lines on Fb few days back and I instantly felt an urge to share it and write something about it.
“I want to live simply. I want to sit by the window when it rains and read books I’ll never be tested on.
I want to paint because I want to, not because I’ve got something to prove.
I want to listen to my body, fall asleep when the moon is high and wake up slowly, with no place to rush off to.
I want not to be governed by money or clocks or any of the artificial restraints that humanity imposes on itself. I just want to be boundless and infinite.”
I know many people in my friend circle whose idea of a perfect life was to be famous and rich- followers all around you, people who consider you their idol. I have to admit even I was temporarily carried away by the same school of thought.
But deep down, I know that my perfect life – or the life that I wish for is quite different. I don’t want people setting high standards for me; or for anyone to restrict my creativity. I should be free to do whatever I want whenever I want.
Funny but very recently I mentioned this to a friend- how would my life be if I just run away from all of this and set up a quiet life in some remote place. I always imagine Sikkim to be that place, I don’t know why! I’ll probably set up a small café in one of these North Eastern place and operate this small business. Open a free school for the village kids. Sit by the mountain stream and sketch- not for showing it to anyone because let’s face it- I sketch bad! But because it gives me happiness. Lie down on the grass and fall asleep gazing at the star lit sky. Put out your hand from the window while it rains and feel the tiny droplets create a pattern on your skin. Stay alone and have time for yourself. Do something the society will remember you for.
Just thinking about it makes me feel so peaceful. It probably won’t even happen. Just that the idea is so pristine that dreaming about it is my best pass time.
But what is achievable is that wherever we are, we do things for our self. I never like to sing or dance in public. Agreed, I feel embarrassed. But when someone tells me, the world will never know how good you are unless you show them- my answer is always the same- I don’t do it for them, I do it because I like to.
I own a small sketch book and I show it people only if I want to. Else, it remains with me as my personal piece of art. People call me reserved, maybe untalented. But I know myself and that is more than enough for me to feel happy about myself!
I’m Maya Ghosh. I work in Chennai and stay in a quiet little place of my own. I like to sing and dance. I occasionally enjoy writing and sketching. I love listening to music and watching movies. I almost never switch on the television and I don’t easily get addicted to TV series- except maybe Friends! I’m an extreme introvert and I very carefully choose whom to let into my life, although I’m very friendly and affable.
So that’s a small intro for the few who spare a few minutes every day and read the crap that I write!
If you’ve made it till here, thanks for reading and being a part of my virtual space!